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simplicity [Feb. 12th, 2007|02:48 am]
[mood |Infinite]
[music |Angels and Airwaves - The Adventure]

Wow. That, in an unfortunate turn of events, is all i can say. For someone as long winded and semi-articulate as i am, that's the perfect way to describe how i feel right now. Being 100%, over the top jump off a bridge and slit my throat in love with the perfect girl, and to spend an entire weekend with her, makes me see everything in a light, nay, a clarity that is so amazingly crystal, it's as though i could peer into the heavens themselves through her eyes, and feel the world collapse in on itself when she left my arms.

Ok, now that i got that out of the way, this weekend rocked. Good times with a few good friends, and great times with one particular friend (ill spare you the details ^_^). But, all in all, it boils down to this single fact. Sex, when it has such a huge amount of feeling behind it, is powerful. It's Raw, untamed, destructive and just, primitive. To be able to so openly force your feelings and emotions (among everything else that gets forced ;)), it's just so... fulfilling. And, to put it bluntly, amazing. But aside from that, Wisconsin and Minnesota pretty much suck, drive wise. Flat, kind of boring, cold, and we're fairly confident that they pump helium into the atmosphere to make you fucking retarded.

I miss having you with me Hannah!!  Because, to be honest, sleeping alone sucks. And nothing is sweeter then waking up to a girl snoring on your shoulder ^_^
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Elegance [Feb. 7th, 2007|03:53 am]
[mood |Frothy]
[music |The Get up kids - hannah hold on]

From here, to houghton, to the west. I finally get a week out of this god forsaken state, and away from anything that reminds me that im so far from home it makes me ill. Granted, i have a better situation then most, but it's difficult being in a place with no one to call a friend within 500 miles. Well, cept one, but, your always busy!!! It's 4am, and ive got a bus to catch. Sleep tight, San Deigo.
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Want to Buy [Jan. 8th, 2007|06:11 pm]
[mood |Departed]
[music |Orange Risk - Asterisk]

Ugh. It's been a long month. But, i suppose it's all been worth it. I miss home, and i miss my friends a great deal. And, having my car die on my way to visit for the holidays... not cool.
At least im not a million miles away from everyone, and that's refreshing. But still, i feel like ive been abandoned, and abandoned the people i knew. Like some kind of weird ass polarity you only see in old episodes of the twilight zone. And holy shit, do i need to stop listening to Swtichfoot >.
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HOLY CRAP [Dec. 26th, 2006|01:37 am]
[mood |Holy pop culture reference!]
[music |Im not, TV IS ON!]

Happy reconfigured birthday jesus. hope you got something good, but you probably got a sweater. cause, you probably have one of those grandmothers. like everyone does. the one you like, but always gets you a damn sweater, instead of like, a gift card or something. eh, next year, ask for a Wii or something. bye jesus.
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50 Cent be damned [Dec. 11th, 2006|06:21 pm]
[mood |>.]
[music |Third Eye Blind - Jumper]

If there is one question i think no one ever likes to hear in repeated succession, its " How does it feel to be 21?" Imagine every other birthday you've had, and then add alcohol in public. Thats pretty much it.
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My space, my time [Nov. 8th, 2006|05:04 am]
[mood |Somber]

It's november, finally. At least, thats what people say, and what the weather is hinting at. it's been such a long year, with people being shuffled in and out of my life, and me about to shuffle myself out of my own life. Living around here is growing to be more tiresome than ever, and right when i thought i might need my friends the most, i realized i dont need anything at all. Because, im fine. Out of everything that happens, or how my environment changes, im fine. But damn, how i wish i could get away under a tree with a joint and a good book. Alas, it's too cold, and short on i lack the, goods, so to speak. That, and i havent had a book pique my interest in almost 10 years. And, if debilitated memory serves me correctly, that book was some Steven King book, and it was gripping to my 11 year old mind, as though i could place myself outward from here. Ah, to be blessed with the ignorance of youth again....
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Bicarbonate of Soda [Oct. 18th, 2006|06:04 pm]
[mood |demonstrative]

This has probably been the 3rd worst day ever. Flat tire on the way to town, sprayed myself with Military CS gas accidently (funny as hell, btw), and i have to shut my phone off this weekend. And to top it all off, i cant stop wondering how my old friends are doing. It makes me wonder how i lost one of my best friends to absolutly nothing. Drifting happens, i suppose, but this is rediculous. 10 months without talking, when we used to spend every day together. In any case, im going back to bed, to worry my simple worries and dream my unimagineable dreams..
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Dont touch me, im sterile [Sep. 26th, 2006|11:23 pm]
[mood |entrenched]

So, after a few very hard decisions, i spent the last  of my money on my cell phone and a rousing game of DDR with some friends. $51 spent, and really, i couldnt think of a better way to have spent it.  Though, it seems everything lately leads me to think that i need to leave here, and just go where no one knows me. as much fun as i have with the people i know,  i need to take to steps back. and honestly, im about 5 years late on doing that. i lost alot of ground in my life losing a parent, but i think it's time i grow up and move on.  So... give me ideas!! i need a place to go, and suggestions are.. awesome! (fyi, i have family in oregon, Southern Michigan, arizona, and Seattle.)

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Save a dance for me? [Sep. 22nd, 2006|11:26 pm]
[mood |Aquireable]

Finding out so many things makes for a very interesting week at home. And, finding out that i have very little control over the next few weeks, scares me.  But, i've made it through worse, and im pretty sure ill be able to push on forward. and wow, i never realized so little 5th graders could make such a huge amount of noise, edge of insanity, i tell you.  
I wonder if im ready to go back to make an attempt to make something out of my life. Is college the answer? or should i find something to give me the motivation do go into that step? can all my answers be found in god? or just as easily picked from a fortune cookie, found in a jar on the counter? or are they things i need to decipher for myself? i ask only due to the fact that this is something i can always come back to, and, who knows. maybe someday, ill become famous, or ill die. either way, someone gets to read this crap.  bleh. and i find myself pondering if ill be at a funeral in the coming months. 

Wonderous, be forthcoming! Let into your home the light of day, and maybe you wont forget the footstool in the center of the room!

it's going to be a hellish winter martha. bring in the cows.
Corey, we never talk anymore. I feel like i live 25 miles south of you, or something.

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(no subject) [Sep. 11th, 2006|01:13 pm]
[mood |I hate the fall]
[music |AFI - Silver and Cold]

i was thinking of writing something meaningful, but that moment passed.
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